Adventures in Imperfection

Hike: A Guest Post by Kristen Rybandt

In the first five minutes of our hike, we saw a dead mole, a tiny wet organ that looked like a roasted red pepper and a tree with He’s Watching scrawled across its trunk. If I hadn’t been so excited about the tuna fish sandwiches and snacks we’d brought, I would have seen them for what they were: signs. The universe was practically hissing Go back.

Hike: A Guest Post by Kristen Rybandt
Here’s your sign

The idea for the sandwiches and hike came to me while putting away groceries and licking the wound that I couldn’t get out for a run because of childcare duties. My seven-year-old daughter likes running in theory and for about the first two minutes, but she definitely loves exploring trails.

I discovered this earlier in fall when we went to a paved trail to walk-run, but like any good kid she wanted to take the “shortcut”, which wound around a stream and forced us across a rickety slat bridge. We hit a fork in the path – one way went back to the paved trail and the other led to adventure with about an hour to dusk, and it was so easy to choose the latter that it felt planned.

The trail system in our township is a labor of love. They’re extensive and well forged and color marked reliably on trees along the way. Hansel and Gretel could have made it out in plenty of time to report their parents to authorities. All you have to do is stay on the trail and get out well before dusk.

I believe we were on a black trail that day, though it might have been blue or green. The colors intersect at various points across a 5-mile tract of land cutting across an eastern branch of the Brandywine River and wetlands. Mostly it’s hilly woods walled with crags of Pennsylvania bluestone.

My daughter and I talked about the importance of staying on the trail and watching for cyclists since it’s also a bike trail, though talk about a challenge. The path is narrow with sudden twists, not to mention root-ridden and steep. We heard lots of rustles in the side brush and theorized what kind of animal it might be. I explained to both of us that probably a chipmunk could make that racket in a panic on a dried bed of leaves.

The trail we followed that day took the shape of a really long U before slanting up, and we eventually found ourselves near the peak. My girl saw a casual path off the trail and found a bench at the very top, which we agreed would be a nice spot to come back and sit when there was more light and also cookies.

The sun was starting to dip low enough to activate low pulses of maternal panic. I still had this idea that the trail we were on looped back around to the paved part, and that we must be really close. I have a great sense of direction when coming out of a store in the mall, but not so much in the woods.

We were saved that day by a group of boys and a dad and a sweet boxer pup named Penny. They bounded up from the other direction through a cut of bluestone and we had the chance to ask each other where the other had come from. Turns out they came from a lot I didn’t even know connected, the same one where we’d once released a pissed off, smelly groundhog that had moved in under our porch. The lot and memory were far enough away to jolt me into common sense. We would have to turn around and go back the way we came and try again another day. My daughter was disappointed.

And here we were, one month later with the perfect vacuum of free time and unfilled promise. The day was perfect for a leisurely hike…crisp, breezy, near-peak foliage, nothing on the schedule but a birthday party hours later. I made a couple of tuna fish sandwiches and packed apples, cookies, trail mix and water. We parked at the groundhog abandonment lot with the goal of finding the bluestone pass where we’d met Penny and her people.

We were barely out of the parking lot when we were forced to choose. Green or blue trail? Blue seemed to point in the wrong direction plus was cloaked in an ominous overhang of branches, so we chose Green. Green started out grassy and wide and flat, all Dora the Explorer, though quickly narrowed to poorly lit, old Scooby Doos. This is where we saw the delicately gored mole, easily mistaken for a leaf or a stone, but the wrong texture. My girl fussed over its velvety gray coat and said it made her so sad. Maybe a hawk dropped it, I said. Hawks have to eat too.

A good fifty paces up, we saw small splatters of blood and an organ that looked like a roasted red pepper and seemed too big to come from a mole. She was more fascinated than upset by a disembodied, non-velvety organ and we decided the woods must be crawling with creatures. They all have to eat.

All this talk of eating made us think of our tuna fish sandwiches. This is the exact spot where we saw the He’s Watching tree and I realized I’d left both sandwiches in a tidy stack in the fridge. At least I remembered the snacks and water.Kiddo

We each took an apple and continued, sticking to Green based on a questionable sense of direction and whim. We tripped countless times on leaf covered roots, lurching forward each time in comical fashion. The woods were like those apple trees from Oz, I joked. Maybe they don’t want us here. Clusters of fallen branches looked like crouched bears from the corner of our widened eyes. We tread a bit slower.

Eventually, we saw a fluorescent swatch of pink track suit zipping through a thicket of trees and realized we were right by the paved trail. The arch of my right foot was starting to throb, and I started thinking about the two races I had coming up and how an injury wouldn’t do. My girl pointed out the wooded slat bridge we’d crossed on our previous hike and my heart sank. We’d already been hiking an hour, and we’d come to the wrong part. We would have to turn around soon in order to save my foot and make that birthday party and possibly a nap first if we were lucky.

My girl spotted the path leading up a steep hill. It wasn’t marked trail, and I knew better to take it, but it called out in the way some good bad decisions do. Even when the path dissolved back into steep woods, we kept climbing up. It had more to do with momentum and a healthy fear of heights. I leaned forward and scurried up with my hands because there wasn’t anything to hold onto. We hit a flatter clearing halfway up and stopped. I looked around and had the chance to see how ridiculously far up we’d climbed, and also how nothing looked at all familiar. No sign of a trail, just trees. I couldn’t even be sure where we’d come from. I pictured the sun setting and the birthday party with a slice of cake at an empty seat at the table.

Bubbles of panic started to rise, though I was pretty sure we could make our way back down the trail. I wasn’t at all sure how we’d do that without tumbling down like bowling balls. Still, panic is useless and best ripped off quickly like a band-aid. I turned around to start the slow, long sideways creep back down the hill.

My girl, decidedly unpanicked, pointed ahead to a tree that looked like, well, any tree and said “I feel like this looks familiar.” If you’re ever lost in the woods, this is the phrase you ache to hear. I imagine it only sounds good the first five times, but this was still the first. I wanted to believe that it was familiar. Mostly, I didn’t want to roll down a very steep hill like a bowling ball, so we continued climbing up the hill, clawing at big rocks and grabbing onto roots that no longer seemed like they were trying to trip us and may have even been reaching out to help.

When we finally reached the top of the mountain – and I feel okay calling it a mountain – we were in the tree tops. Sunlight lit red and yellow leaves ablaze, and the wind made them dance. It was almost as breathtaking as the sight of the trail at the very top. My girl and I high-fived.

She’d found a shortcut to the trail we’d been on the first time the month before. We followed it to the crest where we’d seen Penny the boxer and high-fived again. Several times we were faced with trail color choices – did we want Black, Blue or Green? – and each time it was a gut instinct guess. Each time I felt a knot of rising panic tighten as a reminder that we literally weren’t out of the woods yet.

The second time we saw the creepy He’s Watching tree, we almost gave it a hug because it meant we were not lost.

It was here that we ate the rest of our snacks and finished the water and talked about instinct and how important it is to listen to that little voice inside that tells you to go this way. Except when it tells you to go the wrong way, but still better to listen because it’s good practice. Or better yet, listen to the little voice of someone little you trust. Sometimes they know the best way to go, even if they’re more than three decades younger and can’t even drive. Together you might stand a fighting chance.

Near the end of the trail, my girl noticed an old bike tire hanging from a tree branch. She wondered how it got there, and her eyes darted around the forest floor for other signs of wreckage. Maybe she expected to find a rusted out bike cage or a skeleton in spandex. The woods can be a dangerous place and let’s never forget that, but mostly let ‘s remember the sandwiches next time.




I am a 41-year-old married mother of two, and for fun I like to read and write and run and watch that TV show where the guy travels around the country building treehouses. I am the keeper of byebyebeer, a blog about sobriety and the good stuff that comes along with it. Sobriety has opened up a brighter, richer world, and I couldn’t imagine trading it for anything.


Don’t I have the coolest, most talented friends ever? Kristen is another one of my personal favorites because she writes from a space of honesty and adventure. My favorite stories are those that she shares from within her family, places she’s lived, and trails she’s traversed. If you haven’t yet, check her out. Kristen blogs at ByeByeBeer. Don’t know where to start? Try Murky Waters, The Drop Ceiling Letters, or 100 Years–and then read everything else, too.

Thank you, Kristen, for letting us get lost…and found…with you 🙂


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33 thoughts on “Hike: A Guest Post by Kristen Rybandt

  1. Thank you so much for sharing Kristen!
    Since I read your story a few weeks back, I’ve been happily lost on several trails. You always find a way to inspire me for whatever step is next.
    Thank you again from the bottom of my heart. xo

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    1. Aww, thanks Michelle! You were blazing trails before I started running paved ones, so it is me who should thank you. It’s awfully nice how we inspire each other and how it evolves along the way. I think the world of you. Thank you for allowing me the chance to guest post 💕

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      1. I shared the keys (THANK YOU!!!) and read the story to my daughter. She listened to the whole thing, as did our two cats who crept into the room (fun fact: cats love bedtime stories). When I was done, I asked my daughter what she thought. She said cheerfully “It was long, but I really liked it.”

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  2. You are far braver than I Kristen. I panic when I’m lost in the shopping mall but then when I see the Abercrombie and Fitch again, I know it’s going to be okay so I just make a bee line into the Haagen Dazs. Don’t even get me started on finding my car….oh my this may be inspiration for my next blog. Thanks to you and Michelle for posting!

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    1. Ha, thanks for your hilarious comment and for reading! Part of our mall is a ghost town, so I stick to where Sears is, though that has the abandoned Hollister SoCal facade painted white with weird mannequins on the porch. Malls can be spooky too.

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  3. I found Kristen long ago and love her writing. I love this story for so many reasons – the collaboration with your child, the trusting of instincts, the sense of adventure. Plus, the graffiti phrase “He’s watching you” took on a very different tone at the end, didn’t it?

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  4. All the makings of a scary story here! Enjoyed reading about your adventure (from the safety of my home!) Glad things turned out okay. I love this line: “panic is useless and best ripped off quickly like a band-aid.” So true.

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  5. Kristen, you are an amazing storyteller! There are so many metaphors for life in this. I love it when your daughter says, “I feel like this looks familiar.” It’s so easy to disregard what a kid says because they don’t have our “experience” but they have trust and a willingness to risk being wrong. I’ve been doing a lot of hiking in my neck of the woods and I’m always amazed at how lost I can feel when I’m only steps away from a well marked path. Another metaphor, I suppose. Much love to you! ❤

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      1. I’ve somehow never been but would love to visit sometime and take you up on your offer! Likewise, please let me know if you’re ever in my neck of the woods.


  6. I’m glad you made it out.
    Have you read Stephen kinks book the girl who loved Tom Gordon? Your daughter might be too young, but your story totally reminded me of it.
    I could imagine the whole walk. You have a beautiful way with words.

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  7. I know exactly the patch of land that you are talking about, and that trail at the top of the bluff that we think of as “the trail where we were surprised by the Adventure Unicyclist.” Clearly, that fold of hills is thick with ley lines, or fey magic, or just hawks and unicycles with knobby tires.

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    1. A unicyclist! Wow! Ive seen them practicing in a tennis court, but imagine the untamed spirit who takes it to those trails. I wonder if you know anything about the remains of the stone wall and foundation near the paved trail. We didn’t notice it when the leaves were still on…every time there’s new magic.

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  8. Hi Kristen! You know how much I adore your storytelling. Very much like the twisty trails you hike with your daughter, we never know for sure where you’re leading us, but we know we’re in for a delightful treat. And cookies. Beautiful writing as always.
    Excited to hear about the upcoming races. I’ve been plodding along, but mostly as an excuse to eat more cookies.
    Hope you had a great Thanksgiving!

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    1. Hey there! Races…yeah, I will write about those. The whole running thing took an unexpected twist this fall. Thanks for the nudge bc I do want to write about it. How the hell are you? Really good, I hope. Maybe we’ll read an update from you in the near-ish future. Hope you had a lovely Thanksgiving and that all is good with you. Xoxo

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      1. Things are really good. I’ve been writing some on my creative blog (–come visit!– but really not that much. Been hard to find the time.
        A running twist, huh? Yes, nudge nudge!


  9. Kristen I think you could write about anything~ what a talent you have! I love the idea of hiking with your girls, what a great bonding time. Me~ I’m a chicken-~ I would have ran when I saw the scary talking tree~!!! Hez Watching……


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