A note from my new friend Deepti, prompted me to quickly write and share a few words this morning. She was kind enough to give my blog a “shout out” in her piece on overcoming the fears of public speaking and imperfection. I’d like to say that what you’ll read below is divinely inspired as a result of weekly writing practice drills while sipping tea, and meditating…but it’s not.
Typically, I write several times a day and any time the urge comes over me. This week, I’ve barely touched the computer and my journal is dusty and unopened. The prompt to write today came after I got out of bed too late, under-caffeinated, sleep-deprived and completely stressed about the Friday that waits for me. It also came from the words blaring in my brain, “Crap! I can’t have Deepti’s followers check out my site. It’s full of junk right now. I suck!”
I’ve been fighting a negative (toxic) voice that has pushed me to the brink of paralyzing writer’s block. In the spirit of being vulnerable, real and imperfect, I’m going to come clean. I could blame real job messes, house messes, sleep deprivation and absolutely NO food in this house..ANYWHERE. Lot’s of reasons to not be able to write, but I’d be flat-out lying.
I haven’t been able to write simply because I don’t think it’s good enough or read-worthy. Because it’s not perfect. Because I’m not perfect. A classic case of being paralyzed by the fear of not being perfect.
Reading Deepti’s kind words on her blog this morning (thank you talented friend) was uplifting, humbling and a fantastic kick in the butt! So this is me snapping out of fetal position and reclaiming my stake on achieving IMperfection as well as killing and smashing down the voice that keeps telling me I suck. I know I can’t be perfect, so how about mastering imperfection? I almost ran out of gas earlier this week so I have a head start on all y’all. And, since writer’s block is still looming (not to mention the 5 conference calls awaiting my presence) I’m going to simply re-publish what started this whole blog in the first place. Feel free to read if you haven’t already or re-read if you need a reminder.
Here’s the link to my original post: Celebrating Imperfection: Let’s get this party started!
Even better…a link to a dear fellow blogger who hits the nail on the head. Shout out to Victoria who wrote this fantastic article: Vulnerability: The birthplace of Creativity, Connection and Authenticity.
You are real, imperfect and you are SPECTACULAR!